其实白天也有星星，只是粗心的眼睛忽略了，没看见

LOL . I feel so lame after writing so much . Well , I don't really really care now . Hmph D:

ENOUGH , PLEASE .

I WANT TO CRY ALREADY .
WHY , CAN'T I HAVE TWO IMPORTANT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE .
WHY .
FINALLY , THE'RE SOMETHING WRONG IN THIS .
I WANT TO BALANCE UP EVERYTHING .



Anyway , I'm gonna be the emcee tomorrow . Look out for me :D

It's kinda hard to believe how much impact you had on me . And that I feel like a failure . Was talking to twinny lazt night and trying to act like nothing really happen , didn't want to worry her I guessed . But still , broke down . I cried myself to sleep last night , and woke up at 5 and cried to sleep again . When I woke up , I cried again . It has been 1 hr plus since I woke up , and kept crying non stop . So you're happy now ? No one had hurt me like how you do . HA. HA . Thanks ahstead for talking to me this morning , but ahstead's busy now , so I'm all alone again . Hahs , so eventually , I'm still alone . It's just that I used months to walk one big round before I came back to the original place here where there's no one at all . 2nd time , you made me feel so hurt .


& I'm afraid that I'll do stupid things later on when I go out with sunshine . I hope I don't . I feel like owning a bicyle , although I know once I cycle I will fall down and injured myself again . Who cares . I want to go for a ride around . I need a break . I'm very tired already . *Okay , mom just called me and thank god she didn't realised I was crying .*



Okay bye .

D:







Broke down twice today . Felt so disappointed with myself . Finally chased away stress , now that tomorrow is history paper already , stress came back to me . Damn stress . What the fuck . When people asked me what chapters have I studied , they were damn shock to know that I still have 5 chapters to study today . Fuck . 

I NEED MOTIVATION TO STUDYYYYYY ! D:

EDIT !

eeeeeek , my phone is getting kinda suckish now ! cause cause , I need to restart it damn lots of time in order to receive certain messages . So sorry if I happen to reply your message late or didn't reply your message ! haha . Its time to change a phone ! :D






I'm gonna buck up , and really study hard now ! *wide smiles*

I kinda like my seat in class now , because I tend to concentrate more . I think its cause the fact that I keep on eating sweets at my seat . I NEED TO MUNCH ON SOMETHING WHEN I'M STUDYING IF NOT I CAN'T CONCENTRATE . Howhow ? Can't make it a habit if not I'll eat in class everytime . Not good ! D:

Completed maths consolidate exercise already , alrights , stuck with 1 question , gonna ask sunshine tomorrow ! She's a maths pro but a SLACKER . But oh shits , I still don't feel like doing the chinese essays . 2 or 3 undone ? Ah damn , just don't have inspirations to do . Waluuuu >.<

( Awwwwww )

最近比较烦，容易发脾气。
如果不小心 show you attitude ，对不起啦。
不是故意的，会想办法控制自己的。
应该是时候，学着长大，坚强一点。
不可以再哭了，真的不可以哭了。
 
Thanks ahstead for listening to my grumbles these few days , although idk will you read this post . Anyway , you're a very very good friend okay , AND YOU VERY SHUAI LAH ! (*serious*) Nice to have a friend like you , whom I can talk about almost everything . Sorry to keep troubling you by telling you all my troubles , keep crying when talking to you . But still , you're a nice friend !


I told myself I can't cry again , BUT I CRIED AGAIN . Wah lao eh , so weak lah . Instead of good friends coming to talk to me , its some random people who talk to me when I need someone to talk to . & I got a feeling that I'm drifting away from my good friends . Definitely don't want this to happen . Maybe should learn to treasure them before I lost them .

Need to thank some not-very-close friends for the concern yeah . These little things people do sometimes can make you so gandong . Yeah , love them ! Aye , wondered why I didn't cry during the SYF but keep on crying now .



I'm , sick now . Very damn sick . Maybe I shall go to the doctor tml , haha . Wish me get well soon . Basically feel like vomiting for the whole day lah . Especially after reccess , got this very tongku face . Ahhh damn . Skipped lunch for today and yesterday , either too busy to eat/ don't feel like eating . And now after SYF I think kinda better le bah . Cause during the SYF period , my dinner for everyday is instant noodles . My life isn't healthy at all D:




don't feel like grumbling anymore , lucky for your ears .

everytime when I'm trying to find a person to talk , you're missing .
or maybe , its because the fact that when you're missing , I need to find a person to talk to .
Ayeee D:

QIWEN IS VERY VERY DAMN HUNGRY !!! D:
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cause , I hadn't eat dinner . (10.53pm)

Because of the fact that I only want to eat KWAY CHAP , I don't feel like eating any other things . Even my mom beg me eat , I also don't feel like eating . BUT I WAS DAMN HUNGRY OKAY . & then , because I was way too hungry to do anything . I fell asleep at 9pm D: . & just woke up lah , STILL HUNGRY . DAMN DAMN DAMN . If you see me going crazy tomorrow , that's probably because of hunger . Ahhhh , I need food ! I need energy ! AHHHHHHHHH T.T


& , DARDAR ROCKS LAH . Cause today I bushuang _ keep deesiao and kpkb , then I complain to dardar . After that when _ deesiao again at the staircase outside classroom before music lesson , then DARDAR SCOLD BACK AT _ . Whoosh , felt so shuang lah ! Dardar super jiang3 yi4 qi4 one lor . You got any problem , tell her , she sure help you . Whee dardar I love you ! <3


Talking to twinny on MSN now , cause my phone keesiao again . Going to sleep soon I think , tired D: .

[你能分清楚爱和喜欢吗？]
喜歡和愛咫尺千里。

當你喜歡一個人時，你想和他在一起，因為他會帶給你快樂；

離開後，你會想念，想著想著就會笑，然後繼續你平靜的生活，並期待著與他再一次重逢。

當你愛一個人時，你想和他在一起，那是一種牽腸掛肚的捨不得，怕他受委屈，怕他不能好好照顧自己；

離開後，你也會想念，想著想著歎一口氣，'不知他現在過的怎樣？'

然後你繼續你平靜的生活，希望他早日回到你身邊。

你喜歡的人在你眼中是天使，無所不能，他總會滿足你的任性的要求。

你愛的人在你眼中是孩子，傻傻的，你不期望他做出什麼'好事'來，只一味縱容他那些讓人哭笑不得的舉動。

你會希望你喜歡的人陪著你，然而你心中想的可能是你愛的人；

你會希望陪在你愛的人身邊，看他在你面前睡得如此安逸甜美毫不設防的樣子，你會微笑，會覺得好幸福。

你喜歡的人傷害了你，你會生氣，並且一定要讓他哄著騙著逗你笑你才原諒他；

你愛的人傷害了你，你只會獨自傷心，因為你怕對他大吼大叫會嚇著他，你憂傷地微笑著，看著他的眼睛，

一旦發現他的眼裡流露出歉意和悔恨，你會立即心疼地摟他在懷裡，那一刻，你也是幸福的。

你可以同時喜歡很多人，你會希望和很多人在一起，

但也許很多年後你才發現，原來你愛的就只有那麼一個，

就那麼一個，怎麼都不會變，你以為把他忘記了，其實只是忙的沒空想起而已，

對於你喜歡的人，你關注的是他的優點；

對於你愛的人，你關注的是他的缺點，並且，那些缺點如果無關原則的話，它們在你眼裡是可愛的，獨一無二的。

喜歡和愛其實只有一紙之隔，任何愛都從喜歡開始，當有天你突然發現，你喜歡的那個人在你眼中不再完美，

而他的瑕疵正如月中的桂影一般讓你更加依依不捨，你會覺得與他光彩照人的一面相比，

你更願意看他在你面前無助的表情，不知道是不是應該祝賀你，總之，你的感情昇華了
——

仰慕不是愛，甚至不是喜歡，當你對一個人只有仰慕之情時，你們在一起便失去了和諧。

有人說愛一個人很累，的確是，因為你想為他承擔，可是愛與喜歡相比最大的魅力就在於，

當你和愛的人在一起時，你的感覺就像回家了！

So now , what are we ?



huuhuuhuu , gonna go do maths homework and study for test le ! BYE .




长大了，不会哭了 !

I'm not very happy about what I saw yesterday and today . & I know the only person I could talk to is sunshine now . But unfortunately , her phone lost le , and mine spoiled . Damn it . So probably , now only I know what happened to me . Hohohoho . Cause no other people in this bloody suckish world is sensitive enough to know how I feel . lol .

EEEK , BYEBYE .

Screw that damn thief , you're sucha bastard/ bitch manzxz . Investigation in progress :D




I feel so damn stupid now , that when jonathan taught me how to do the maths worksheet given yesterday . It's so damn fucking easy that I cannot believe I don't know how to do . Screw me . Plus I totally cannot understand what Miss Jannah had taught okay ? She goes super fast , and don't know a lot of things . All she do is says : " Okay I'll prepare the solutions and explain tomorrow ." So many tomorrows indeed . & even Suwei(3H/3G ?) agrees okay ?! He said that their maths teacher even gave them supplementary lessons to reteach the whole chapter . WOW . Maybe now I should go do my maths homework le , JIAYOU .